CHRISTIAN NIGGA BE LIKE:

Siyabonga Sokhela <sokhelasg@gmail.com>	8/21/09

from:		Siyabonga Sokhela <sokhelasg@gmail.com>
to:		Khanyisile Willem <209199555 cput.ac.za="">
date:		Fri, Aug 21, 2009 at 4:12 PM
subject:		No Crushs
mailed-by:		gmail.com

 

"One thing I can confirm is the fact that non of us was the reason for us to esparate and I think the fact that we are still communicating is the evidence.

 

My intention was not to hurt you. I actually wanted the best for the two of us and I triely believe that what we gonna get. according to the world there is no actual reason why we should separate but considering the fact that I am a christian, there are reasons. I understands you dont like it when I refar to the word of God but the truth is; it is the central part of my life. I no longer live just in my flesh but in the spirit also.

Indeed we had a wonderful relationship, I'm happy of all things that happened between us, it would be a great pleasure if we can do it again in future, but then it should be done in the "christian" way. indeed you are a great woman and you deserve nothing less than a guy like me, the problem is such guys like Diyo are so expensive. They demand patience, patince and more patience.

The Reason:

 

I was designed for one person just like Adam was designed for Marry. God is the one to decide when it's the right time for me to have a woman in my life, i am not expecting you to understand this now but let me tell you; In life there are only two ways. One is so broard and a multitude of people are on it. It is so nice to be in this road and in it there is no law, you do whatever you like as much as you want it, indeed it is fashionable. The only thing that is not good about it is the fact that it leads to eternal DEATH. Then thre is this narrow road that very few people are walking on it. It is so hard to walk, especially if you are living in this world. What's good about it is the fact that it leads to knowledge, the truth and ERTENAL LIFE. I prefar walking in this road as erternal life is just what I'm looking forward to.

I ended our relationship because I understood I had to wait, and God will be the one to tell when it's time and to give me the one especially designed for me. I swear he knows I love you. I'd love to spend my life with you but that shouldn't be what I'm concerned about. his word said "Seek His kingdom first and the rest will be added to your life" so mine is so search him and "you" if it's you, will be added in my life.

Just can't re-read this. forgive me if there are any errors"

 

I'm still in disbelief I said all this to a woman I loved. Especially at the age of 19...  LOL. It's really not funny though. I guess it was really hard being in Khanyisile's shoes back then. I still wonder how she broke the news to her friends, and how she comprehended all this.

 

 

I BELIEVE IN LOVE

As a young boy growing up in the township, from lower primary, through HP, right to high school, I have learned one huge lesson when it comes to the matters of the heart. Loving someone doesn't always call for a romantic relationship. This lesson didn't drop like a bomb in my mind; I came to realize it through the humiliation my heart went through as I fell for one girl to the next.

I was doing grade three when I first met a woman I would have loved calling my wife. I wrote her love letters and she returned them. I was too young to have a dream back then, so she was my fantasy. I use to think about her every night when I go to bed and in the morning when I woke. I knew very little about God back then, but I took time to pray for her. I loved with an innocent heart, the nature of love that's not related to knowledge, wealth, or achievements. I loved that young woman simply because I did, not because I knew why.

Maturity began the day I realize I wasn't really going to marry that young lady. Some might say that's when reality stroke. I'd like to think that's when the innocent of young love got contaminated. According to the English dictionary, to contaminate is to make (something) dangerous, dirty, or impure by adding something harmful or undesirable to it.

The moment we allow external factors like age, achievements, level of education, faith, etc. to determine whether we want to be with someone or not, that's the moment we lose the purity of love. Thinking of the very 1st person we ever fell in love with as kids, we all can determine where we lost the love we all seem not to believe in.

We have been made to believe that the ultimate expression of love toward someone is marrying them. I can't agree any less to that. However we need to approach love as a concept that's beyond just romance but as a way of relating to the people around us, and that's the whole point I'm trying to make here. While this sounds much easier in theory, it is often hard in practise, particularly when a guy loves women outside of a relationship.

I personally have loved women, lots of them. Some of my good friends I've been with at crucial stages in my life were women. I'm talking about the year I did my grade 11 and matric, my 2nd year at varsity, my 1st year at College after I dropped out at varsity. Most of my friendships were mistaken as affairs, which didn't bother me so much.

Having had plentiful female friends, I learn to understand and appreciate women, love them for who they are, envision the worse, hope for the best, and most of all; settle for what's on offer without a spark of dissatisfaction.

I believe in love, all sorts of love. I love love and I love loving it. It's such an awesome feeling I'd love to share with the rest of the world. I love the way it's confuse and fascinate people. I find pleasure in all love-related concepts, and I'd like the world to know that.


 

DREAM GIRL (Poem)

I kissed a girl in my dream

My dream girl

The woman of my dreams

The kiss was shorter than I wanted it to be

But longer than I expected

It was a brief deep kiss

I kissed a girl in my dream

We shared a hug at daylight

It was warmer than the sunlight

It was the highlight of my night
She offered more than the comfort

I experienced a golden touch in my sleep
It was more awesome than a wedding cake
It was a dream touch in the dreamland of my sleep
I kissed a girl in my sleep

My dream girl

The woman of my deams

It was a skin on skin kinda kiss
I exposed my tongue onto her saliva
I was more than willing... I was winning
It was more explicit than a sextape
I still wish for a clip
I still feel her tongue rushing through my mouth
My lips, her lips
My chest, her breast
My hands, her hips
In my sleep we did it all

I kissed a girl in my dream
My dream girl
The woman of my dreams
She held me close
I held her tight
I swallowed herself into my heart
Just for a sec I felt complete
It was one plus one that made us one
I felt her blood rush in my veins
My hear-beat kick was not in vain
The song I heard I wish to play
The kiss I shared I wish to keep
For another day or year or life

I kissed a girl in my dream
My dream girl
The woman of my dreams
The distinction between dreams and reality is huge
But still I dream my dream could live
I got effort to put
Mind to think
Time to invest
Desires to fullfil
Feelings to express
A woman to impress
Weaknesses to overcome
Love to give
Wedding to attend
And a lifetime to share

I kissed a girl in my dream
My dream girl
The woman of my dreams